Long Time No See

I haven't updated my blog for a long time. A LOT has happened in that past couple of months. Let's see... So in May my Grandma Ila Rae Riley passed away. One of the hardest times in my life. It was really fast and no one saw it coming. We found out that she had cancer. 3 or 4 different types of cancer. Ovarian, Uterine, and colon cancer. They were able to get two of them earlier but one of them spread throughout her body. She did chemo which made her really sick.She got an infection in her leg that she couldn't fight. She passed away May 17, 2015. She was a wonderful women. I miss her so much. A little after we found out grandma had cancer, We found out we were pregnant. We were so so happy!!!We have waited a long time to hear this wonderful news. A couple months went by and we found out that we had lost the baby. My heart was broken into a million pieces. Another one of the hardest things I have ever had to go to. I felt like crap. I thought I was broken. There were so many people that comforted our family. Unfortunately,  there were some that were really rude and not compassionate at all. You never know what someone is going through and how they are feeling.   I definitely found out who really cared about me. This was a loss. A huge loss. I never thought it would happen to me. It did. I have definitely learned about myself and the love from heavenly father. They helped me understand that everything will work out. I had to put so much faith in God to get through these events that were so close together. I am so grateful for the plan of salvation. I am so happy that I have this wonderful gospel in my life. I am happy that I get to be with my family FOREVER and see my again. WOW. This gospel is wonderful. I love this gospel. It makes me sad that there are some people that I know that don't believe in our church anymore. It makes me really sad.  There are times when things are thrown so hard at us, but the Lord will never leave our side. He is the one that carries us through. My testimony has been tried, but it has been strengthened. Stronger than ever!!!
In July, Preston and I went to Washington DC. It was so much fun! I had so much fun showing Preston around :) I will post about our trip later!
Before our trip,  Preston and I put an offer on a house. A couple of days later, we found out they accepted our offer!
So we closed the on the house the day we got back from our trip!
We LOVE our new house :) We will post pictures soon! I will write about our story when I have more time. But I just wanted to give an update. We also went to our ward the first time, and it was actually really good. I was worried.  But it was good!
August, I started my teachers training and we start school at the end of the Month! Can't believe school is already going to start! LETS DO THIS (Again)

Answered Prayers!

I know that if we have faith in the Lord, He will bless us. He will bless us if we just do our very best. We must act and work hard. Hard times will come, but He will never lead us astray. I have had a huge weight lifted off my shoulders because I have faith. I have been doing the best that I can. That is all He ever wants. He wants us to do the very best we can. We are enough. He loves us. He will continually pour His blessings upon us as long as we remain faithful. I know that He answers our prayers. Sometimes it is not what you expect it to be but it is what is best for you. He knows us individually! I know that if I continue to do my best, Everything will be okay. Everything will work out.
I love this quote from President Hinckley:

" It isn’t as bad as you sometimes think it is.

It all works out. Don’t worry.

I say that to myself every morning.

It will all work out.

Put your trust in God,

and move forward with faith

and confidence in the future.

The Lord will not forsake us.

He will not forsake us.

If we will put our trust in Him,

if we will pray to Him,

if we will live worthy of His blessings,

He will hear our prayers."

Worth It!

I have had recent experiences that weren't so pleasant. 

I have learned so much about myself. 

I have learned that it really isn't about "Me" and that I shouldn't assume things.

It is so important to go to the person with the issue instead of asking everyone around you.

I was able to go straight to the person and ask them what is going on. 

Let me tell you... It was SO WORTH IT!

I was really nervous about confronting and asking them about what was going on.

I finally got the courage to do this.

It is amazing to know that you aren't the problem or the reason why things were happening. Before this, I just assumed that it was all my fault. It ended up not even being about me... I felt kind of stupid for thinking that it was my fault things were happening. There was a little something that happened that let to this, but I apologized.

I was able to say sorry if there was anything that I have done. It was nice. It was really scary for me to do this but I did it!

If there is anything that you have done to hurt someones feelings, I would apologize as fast as you can! You will feel a lot better. You will feel peace. Don't hold on to grudges. It will destroy you. That is exactly what I was feeling, but when I touched bases with this person... We were able to move on! We are letting are relationship grow and develop! 

That is why I am saying that it is worth it to forgive people! It is also important to not assume things. Go straight to the person. 

You definitely need to see the bigger picture of the situation.

I can't tell you how relieved I am for apologizing and forgiving!

IT IS WORTH IT!

Change

Change is very difficult for me. I think the hardest thing about it is that I can't really do anything about it except change my attitude. There are times where I am just too exhausted to change my attitude. Having a positive attitude can change any situation you are in. I have decided that I am going to try to have a positive attitude when I am faced with hard times. 

This past week, I have been asked to move to the 3rd grade. It was VERY difficult for me to grasp this new idea. NEW teacher, NEW students, NEW schedule, and NEW expectations. It was hard to let my class know that I was needed in another class. A lot of them were very sad. It broke my heart. Some of them are still trying to get over the fact that I am not there anymore. I was very nervous to be with my new class. I didn't know any of them. I was so worried about having an anxiety attack in front of them. There were times where i thought that I couldn't control myself. I had a lot of support from my co-workers. They are amazing. I am a lucky girl. Just then, I realized that I can have a horrible experience or have a positive experience. I chose to be positive. I have seen so many great things because I chose to work hard to enjoy my new position. The teacher I am working with is amazing. She is hilarious and the students love her. She is also very positive and I know that I can look up to her. She has helped me not be so anxious. My anxiety level is really low when I am working with her. She understands which is the best. My new students are incredible :) I was nervous that I wouldn't be able to connect with them. I didn't have to worry one bit. They are kind and loving and so much fun! I know all of their names and I am having a fun time getting to know them. One of the best things about getting a new class, is that when you are out at recess at the same time as your old class, they all come tackle you and give you the best hugs! They tell me they love and miss me. The schedule is what is giving me a hard time. Today, I finally felt like I was doing okay. We'll keep working on it. I thought I was totally going to break down because of all these changes. I am surprised with how well I am dealing with the class change. I am proud of myself.

Another thing that I have noticed in my life is that I don't really spend a lot of time with family or friends anymore. Ever since I got this job, I have been too tired to do anything after school. I am exhausted. I also don't really have any friends that live by me or we have different work schedules. It's hard because I would like to go out and do things with people. Whenever I ask, I get the same response...too tired, too sick, my mom needed me to do something, (doesn't text back) etc. I am sick and tired of people giving me excuses. Just tell me the truth. I am going to try to work hard and plan something with friends. That's one of my goals. 

Preston and I have been trying to save money. We are hoping to get in a house. This is huge! It is crazy to think that we could be in our own home this year. If not this year, next year! 

Another thing we are saving our money for is Washington D.C. We booked our flights. Now we have to plan our trip! SO excited. We are going back with Preston's family. Taylor gets home from his mission in April. So that is awesome! We are going to Maryland where he served his mission. It will be great! We'll see what happens :) 

I know that when I have a positive attitude, the Lord blesses me with tender mercies. I am grateful for that. I have already learned so much because of change. I hope that I can continue to work hard even when times are rough. I also need to start exercising. It makes me feel better. I really just want to get my life back in order. So if any of my friends would like to get together and do something that would be great! Also, if anyone would like to workout. Let me know.